Tuesday 8 May 2012

Of all the crossroads and dilemmas

Many an occasion, a dilemma looks me in the eye. To hold on or to let go?
It could be with regard to a person, a job or something as simple as a hobby.

Ever heard of, ''The best decisions are taken in the shower.''?
Those confines once rendered me an enriching experience, so to say.
Yes, apparently I do have a little crazy in me to attempt foolish stints. Hence, this revelation.

On a serious note, it so happened one day that I cupped some water in my hands. First, I clasped my fingers tightly. The water escaped. Cupping some water again, this time, I released my fingers. Evidently, the water escaped again. Either way, I was at a loss. But what the water didn't fail to do, was to leave my hands wet. It succeeded in making its presence felt.

The affinity struck me. Most of the goals, circumstances and even people in my life are similar to water.

Sometimes, I clasp my fingers tightly and hold on to them, probably to prove to myself (or to the world) that no matter what, I will not hide under the sheets of abandonment just because of a few ugly experiences in the process.

Other times, I may decide to release my fingers and let go. Maybe because there comes a point when I feel that I am losing myself to the pressures of a circumstance or to the demands of a goal or to the expectations of an individual.

But whichever of the two I choose, the sole loser is no one but myself. I lose my sense of purpose. And at the same time, the feeling of suffocation while holding on or the feeling of guilt while letting go is implanted within me, thus making its presence felt.

Eventually, the brainwave that occurred to me was that its all about a little balance and prioritizing. It is, but, we who define those goals and circumstances and not the other way round. It is upto us to decide whether a certain life situation is worth our restless nights and constant efforts.

At the end of the day, it is a reciprocative concept. If you can foresee a long term benefit, that should be belief enough to ignite that dedication in you to keep going.
But if a bruised self-esteem and a shattered self-respect is what comes your way, only a fool would even consider holding on to such a cause.

So, cup the water. But let it stay. The only energy you need to put in is the one that helps you to maintain the stability of your hands. 
Hold on to the goal or person, but not too firmly. Let go, but only if the need arises.